Your life is the one place you have to spend yourself fully -- wild, generous, drastic -- in an unrationed profligacy of self . . . . And in that split second when you understand that you finally are about to die -- to uncreate the world no time to do it over no more chances -- that instant when you realize your conscious existence is truly flaring nova, won't you want to have used up all -- all -- the splendor that you are?