...The more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer, because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of living but the suffering comes to him from things so little and so trivial that one can say it is no longer objective at all. It is his own existence, his own being, that is at once the subject and the source of his pain, and his very existence and his consciousness is his greatest torture. This is one of the great perversions by which the devil turns our whole nature inside out and eviscerate all our capacities for good, turning them against ourselves...